This is what she thinks…..

psssssssssssssssttttttttt…..will update soon….tunggu ok……………

Sneak peak of 2008….

          

“You’re winning in the game that I’m not interested to play.”

The quote above hit me hard… it’s a dialog that I picked out from watching high school musical 2 with my darlings 7 & 3 years old cuz who memorize every single thing of the entire storyline …I regret putting one of the songs in my CD…the lil one wud make me listen to that song ONLY everytime we hope on my ride……i might as well have a CD with 19 tracks of that song..

It’s not the exact word/quote..but It sounds similar….i just twist it a lil bit coz I wanna save time going back home and search for that scene and get the same exact word…yadayada

In life..competitions among human beings are inevitable….some humans are born supersmart…some with beauty and some with brains…and some with both…and some with neither (dun fret my fren)…. They wud be people who will top u at every game you venture into..

Be it at being the one that stands out in the crowd…the most beautiful…..the trendsetter…the one that can speak….it can be frustating at times when they start comparing…it can do a big damage to your self esteem that u took years and years to build…and oh yeah…it doesn’t help either when ur feeling vulnerable as hell and some people rub it in ur face dude….

“Oohhh..look at her…he/she’s really good”

“he/she can’t possibly be a bad person…he/she’s too sweet/kind”

“anak sape nih….baik nye laa..bole buat menantu”

…..when the truth is that they are a two timing jackasses who hides behind a sweet smiling face… how can u justify that….in a twisted society like ours who will judge a person by their physical atrributes…

“pompuan tu isap rokok…bitchy gile”

What kind of statement is this??? Is she a bitch for smoking..when the one who made the statement doesn’t smoke..but talks behind people;s back…wreck people’s relationship….ngongkek kat tmpt gelap dlm kete…..doesn’t that qualify of being a bitch as well….in fact it’s worse..at least smoking tak do damage to other people….(except ur own lung of course….)

“ohhh..rumah2 kat tepi jalan tu ehh”

I would love to say grow up straight to their face…..but I guess they are fully grown adults….some are already in their mid age and still thinks like my lil cousins whom I bet have better manners…

I dun mind these people who want to achieve the greatest goal in their life….even if they have to kiss some asses along the way… it’s none of my business….”as long as they dun meddle in my way…or u will invoke the inner bitchiness…an ugly side of me that I myself dun recognize..the capability of being cold….it’s not good for me..it’s gonna be a self-impose routine that will become an automatic defense mechanism….but sometimes these people are not even worth your time and energy….i strongly believe and hold to what my mum wud always say when I start to question things….. “kebahagiaan itu terletak pada sifat reda kita sebagai manusia..”

I’m happy being a mediocre…who’s with me!! *smile*

Newsflash: I made a leap of faith by chopping off my locks…….suprisingly I didn’t cry though I complained non stop to my mummy dearest who has to bear my endless grunts…..

Preview:

(excuse the enormous satria-baja hitam-inspired sunnies)

12^th September 2007

A few pre-bday celebrations….including a durian themed party….

On-bday celebrations……surprise visits…dinner at cool places…

Post-bday celebrations….

Amazing gifts…..

 

Thank you all for your endless wishes….endless suprises…..i had a superb time..one of the most memorable birthday to date…..looking forward to the next one…. *wink*

p/s: Mohd Reza & Arina Mokhtar..u owe me something…haha

Sharing a bathroom with my beloved abang is not easy in the morning..especially when he takes more than 20 mins for his morning shower….his morning grooming routine can be summarized as very ‘princessy’ for male genus ..i take less time to get ready in the morning….provided that I dun splash some make up on or take time to dry my hair….

Lil sissy gurl,arina is back for a week……the brat pack is now fully completed…its good to have her around after the absence of annoyance for so long…she sleeps in the morning and she stays up all nite long….cleaning every inch of her desk and making all the possible noises u cud ever imagine…I usually dozed off way before midnite on a weekday, and the first nite that she came back… I found myself eating a juicy spicy foldover set with strawberry sundae at 1.00am in the morning…she considered it a challenge keeping me awake pass the midnite stroke and will find ways to do so….”tak cool la akak tido awal”….mmg kene ”pale hotak” la kan….but it’s a blessing that she stays up all nite especially in ramadhan where she will be in charge of preparing ‘sahur’ and that means I get extra sleep…..ur doin a great job sis..just make sure to reduce the amount of sugar u put in that hot tea….8 spoons and I’m on my way to my own death bed.. *smile*

I managed to catch up with some tkc frens for the last 2 days for berbuke….we had two separate session since most of them can’t make it..but I went to both..excellent….it’s been years since I last saw some of them..as they are away on a foreign land….miss zacky who’s goin back to japan this saturday…miss aiza morat whom I bet is safely in Melbourne now after the morning flight….miss farihah, a devoted bedmate and a doctor to be…..miss aaishah..the head gurl…..i was soooo excited that I jumped out of my car once parked and walked straight to the café to see them….

After few hours of chit chatting…gossiping..laughing out loud..it’s time to call it a day….i had to be the cab driver for the nite and send off the minah2 safely back to their home since they all don’t drive (muatan kete overload: aliza kene dok depan..haha)….little that I know….i forgot where I parked my car…..call me absent minded or ignorant or whatever..i have no clue where I parked….i cud memorize the whole shopping mall by heart and I forgot where I parked….determined..i braved the few floors of the car park in search for my car with a mini troop of minahs…..up and down..up and down….up and down…for almost 40 mins….and we finally gave up…

Zacky and I approached the security guard and told him and I cudnt find my car….gave the details away and waited patiently while that man talked on his walkie talkie…

                             “wisky…John…Volvo.. 8**3 OVER”

                              “wisky…John…Volvo.. 8**3 OVER”

                                      “terima tak di sana”

It only took them 10 mins to search for my ride and by the time I reached there..there were 3 other security guards with bright colored helmet there..….one of them shouted….”dik, lain kali sampai tuh, tros ambik pensil tules kat mane parking..tgk nombor2 kat tiang tuh..” OUCHHHHHHHHHH..hahaha.. “ye yer bang, terima kasih yer”. …

It only happens when the tkc peeps are around me…u guys know rite…”aku tros kabut weih”…but we had fun….a memory in ramadhan…..

               

I popped frozz tablets
in my mouth as tho I’m a pill-popping addict….it’s not that good but I like the
minty feeling in my mouth……my head is getting dizzier from a heavy breakfast of
nasi lemak………nasi ayam for lunch and desert of walnut brownies with ice cream
after that..coffee in between the meals…..let’s not forget the cempedak goreng
or nugget nana will bring for tea….if I continue with this kind of eating
habits and plus the lack of exercise from my side….i won’t be surprise if I die
young…hehe

 

With
another 2 pages of list of things to do in one hand…and more pages to come my
way..i opt to pass time writing…Updating this blog has become obligatory…I dun
intend to..but I have to..how’s that??….it’s an instance fix and reliever for
boredom and fatigueness…sleepyness..and it;s only applicable during working
hours ok…

 

A
quick one..i’ve been transferred again….but this time it’s just on a project
attachment basis for two months or I can choose to extend my stay for another 4
months till the end of this year….where?? it’s not in town…I have to cross to
another town…on the way I’ll be greeted by a giant brad pitt asking me “what
are u made of?”.if you are familiar, u’ll know…

 

Life
has been pretty eventful lately…

A
fren has become a new Mrs…congratulations..(your  present is still in my car)

Got
myself involved in a dance that requires me to put on a catwoman suit
(nightmare weih)

I
was admitted for dengue few weeks back ..curse u nyamuksss…

Discovered
that I’m allergic to a type of medication…that will make my eyes look like
Rocky’s after 5 rounds of excessive punching

Another
discovery of how cacat I can be in a game of pool..it’s the crooked hand

Entered
an Endless treasure hunt with all the Gz which can be summarized to an endless
road to self discovery of how uncreative and stupid I can be when it comes to
solving mind questions…yuppp…

 

Baby
gurl has been asking me and arina whether we can bring her to watch the BIG
TV….Last weekend, I brought my lil cousin to watch rat-a-touille. We had to go
for an engagement party earlier, so by the time we arrived at the movie
place…we’re alredy 30 mins late…the next show starts in another 2 hours time
but we had to rush off for family dinner later…so we decided to go in despite
we already missed the first part of the movie…

 

Arina
left her phone in the car..so I decided to go in first without her…. I had baby
in one arm and was holding my bag in another hand….IT WAS pitch black in
there…..i didn’t put my glasses on while I search for my seat In the dark…when
I found my seats……I safely put baby gurl in her seat and settled on mine…. The
next moment I turned to baby, SHE WAS NOT THERE anymore………it was still dark at
that time…………I did let out a lil ‘yelp’ and panicked, but I knew where to
search, she could be at one place only..ON THE FLOOR….hahaha…she slipped off
her chair when I put her on…she didn’t scream or cry..she just stayed
there..maybe coz she was so stunned….hehehe…she didn’t have any injuries….so I
guess I’m off the hooked from being questioned by my uncle and auntie….anyway,
she did enjoy the movie….that’s all that matters….

 

It
makes me wonder of my maternal instinct skills……..hmmmmm???

HAPPY MERDEKA
PEOPLE!!!!!!!

 

Disclaimer:
author is very good with kids…..it’s just sometimes accident happens……..she’s
just absent minded and forget things….. *wink*

 

 

 

 

 

[Azera: the
author]
[Ming: her
aunty from the east coast of mesia]
[Language:
Kelate]
[Note: the
author does speak kelantanese but sounds like org siam yg dok kat border jual
kain..in another word..her kelantanese is bad ok]
[Appendix:
‘ok means tahan and de means sempat..refer to a kelantanese fren if u dun
understand ok]

 
Azera: “ngatok weih nok g kijo
nih”

Ming: “ beso la tuh…’ok ‘ok
skit la..meme gituh pong..nok cari make..rezeki hok halal…mano ado mudoh loni”

Azera: (Mengangguk tanda setuju
dgn rambut horror and off to the shower)

Ming: “acu bubuh make up skit
muko tuh….comey sikik nok kijo…tak do la muko pucat ja…oghe tgk pong tok lalu…”

Azera: (ouch,,,crapp..does it
matter) “tok de doh nih…gi dulu dehh..”

 

I’m
stripped off the comfort of driving my own car to work for the whole month….coz
it’s really not that convenient to drive to my new place….traffic is horrible…

 

That
means no more waking up really late…no more putting on make up while driving…no
more air drying my hair naturally by scrolling down the window car (save
electricity)…no more taking my own sweet time to get ready… Mum was more than
happy to see her daughter up early and barely awake…

 

It’s
back to basics now…PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION….which means the train ok (bukan
bus..tuh tahap otai dah tuh)….the morning rush does not scare me anymore…[refer
to my previous entry about train ride if you dun know what I’m talking about]..let
just say that I’m more street wise now…hahah..self proclaimed yet again….

 

Prior
to that, I am scared to cross the big roads , ride a cab alone..take the
bus…ask direction…”like someone said….pampered la jugak”..i always have
somebody with me….

But
now….it’s do or die….dashing across the street every morning…using a tactic
called the “human shield” ..u tag along people who are about to cross street
too….but u stand behind them..so that if anything happen…it will hit them
first….*evil grin*..works like a charm…

 

The
winding and grinding in the train doesn’t bother me anymore…how can u complain
when u can use someone’s butt as a place to put ur hand bag..it takes the burden off…”take everything’s that is thrown your way
and make the best out of it”….even if your standing a few inches from the
train door…u can have a positive attitude by being grateful of a not-so-mancung
nose that god has given” you….if not u wudn’t be able to squeeze into that
small space and have ur nose jutting out and getting in the way for the train
door to close…[EXAGGERATING…nih dah start merepek ok]

 

but
mind u ladies…dun stand near somebody tall if ur wearing a low neckline
top…they’re gonna have a field day looking down at your “thing”….but I did get
a fair chance of looking at someone else’s hehe..when guys do it…we call it
gatal…but when gurls look at it…I’d like to call it analyzing n admiring others…

 
This
morning was a bit embarrassing when I confidently walked out the train at the
WRONG STATION…but was too embarrassed to get back on the train sbb ade org
comel….so I pretended to find something in my bag until the train leaves and
waited patiently for another one…yet another struggle but laughing at my own
stupidity….crapppppppppp…

i’m totally babbling….sile abaikan petikan di atas….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Friday….29^th
June 2007

On
my way to work this morning, i overheard the morning crew on mix fm were
discussing and arguing on how “women ask
questions they know the answer to”..and “why women kept asking and keep repeating themselves” and “why women ask questions and wants to hear
the answer that they only want to hear”…..

 

I
usually get fired up listening to this kinda talk…I’m not a feminist..but I
believe in female empowerment….gender equality…and fight for women rights..tho
sumtimes…I do admit that women can be a bit emotional….yada yada yada.. (im
sure u guys have a longer list)…

 

I
can be strong headed when It comes to arguments…and how I’d stand by what I
believe in and my principles esp. on women issues….which sometimes can lead to
provocation and a bigger disagreement… BUT
someone has taught me a lot these past few months…that despite the
differences, things will be fine if you can see beyond it….take a second or a
breather before you say things in anger….coz u can never take back the words
you have said….and how u can still argue and have differences on an opinion but
not be affected by the issues…a positive argument…jangan nak always have the
last say on things (*ouch*)..a tip for u who’s just like what I mentioned
above…a question that u need to remind urselves everytime ur arguing with someone… “is emotion more important to u than that person??”

 

Im
in a good learning curve and hopefully I’ll skip to advance class in the next
few weeks..hhehe..btol tak?? Btol btol… 

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 Since
we r still on the female topic page…last Sunday I was part of Malaysia’s book of records…I was one of the
8,571 dancers of the Muhibbah Dance Fiesta held in conjuction with 50^th Merdeka Celebration and the same
time ….one of the wanita MCA program
for “celebrating womanhood”

 

                                                     (the front view)

I
was up by 5.30am in the morning…and was at the office by 6.30am..when
everything is still dark..another record in 2007 for me …2 records in one day
Is way too much..hahah..i had fun that day…despite dancing in the hot morning
sun…(it’s good for ur
skin as long as it’s before 11am)…

 

Me
and my frens were among the younger crowd that day….coz the crowd for line
dancing is usually the older generation…I’m telling you that their cha-chas are
better than mine…a 60 year old aunty shook her hips while I watched in
envy…hahah..it was “alive”…the aunties would be in front ..near the stage…
while us the younger ones chose to stay at the back….and buat suke hati

Happenings
behind the scenes…

Dancing
our way into history…nana G mak yong OD….another thanks to my cameraman who was
supportive enuff to don a yellow striking shirt and wake up early on a Sunday
morning & celebrate womanhood together with all of us….

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A
few updates….I’ll embark on a new journey starting the 1^st of july…

I’ll
be bogged down with so many things to do on my weekends till the end of july…

 
Starting
with the one of the G’s bachelorette party….who’s yet to shop for a head gear…then
her wedding…then another G goin off to Taiwan on a project attachment….

Bowling
tournament…treasure hunt…environment project….planning an escape holiday…

 
Not
complaining.. life’s good ..just sharing…. …willl keep u guys updated ok…

 
[personal
shout outs] 

A
big shout out to miss nanayau..who just turned 24…happy belated birthday…semoga
bahagia di samping org2 tercinta…Btw..i didn’t forget ur bday k..tapi ade human reminder
jer…hahhaha

 
To
my super accountant G…gudlark on ur
new voyage to a foreign land…u know u always have us to support u every step of
the way..even if it means…sending u lots of maggie mee from here….our G
coverage will still be strong eventho ur far away… and u’ll be in our prayers

 
To
miss NINI FARIZA..u just made my day with what u said in the lift……uhuuuuu…

 
Signing
off while smiling..
The
author..

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1st Runner Up….   

We lost

By penalty

I’m one the kicker

Bummer…

Impromptu team

One training session

Nevertheless, we played well..

We fought hard..

A good team effort…

Just luck is not on our side….

Muscle cramps but we can still walk in heels..yeah

We shall spend the cash at the usual lepak spot huh team….

Maggie sup and teh tarik…

Captain crunch signing of…

            

picture courtesy of mr. cheerleader whom i dun wish to bring to my next game….haha

Email 1:

Dear XX,

Have you guys donated blood today? If you haven’t, please do so. I just spoke to the chief nurse and they are short of 60 packs to achieve their target today. Please help them to do so as you are helping the society indirectly.

Come up to Level XX! Its really enjoyable and relaxing. Songs are played as well. Cool huh….

Cheers…

Hey XXX,

I’ve been thinking back and forth whether I shud donate or not…it’d be my first time….so I’m a bit scared….is it painful??

No worries… not painful at all. Trust me… ok, if u r afraid, I will go with you… maybe we should gather the entire XXs group n go together.. that would be cool.. J

Do u know wut time does it end? Coz I have a bit work to do..before I go and donate..i’ll try to grab more people along the way ya…J

Okok.. it ends at 5pm..

So be there early la..

It only takes awhile… abt 30mins….  Cont work later la…. Hehe… work is work.. it will never finish… :p

Hehee..i know…I will go with XXXX later..around 3.30..thanx XXXXX….

A lil me update….

I’ve always been scared of the needles my whole life…when I get my shots from the doc..i’ll always have someone right beside me to accompany me and I’ll look away..up to this age..i still close my eyes when I get my allergic shots or when the doctor wants to take my blood sample..…

I didn’t no where the extra courage came from last week…my office was having a blood donation drive launched by the national blood center…at the end of the day, my fren emailed me saying that they were 60 packs short to achieve their target…previously, during my uni years, when there’s a blood donation…I couldn’t be bothered to even be near the blood donation area..i was ignorant…that wud be the last place I’d want to be….

…the caption “save a life today” really caught my attention…. A did some undersized statistics in my brain….if 60 or more people were as ignorant as me…with the thinking that “ramai dah derma…doesn’t matter” …our blood supply wud never be sufficient…(kecoh la zera nih)…

Email 2:

Beb, U feel like donating blood???

Thanks & Regards,

Azera

Hahaha u ?

I tak minum air 8 kelas, I hardly drink,so I takut.

8 KELAS??? itu gile namenyeh……….hahahhhahahaah….

So I finished up my work…went upstairs with my other G(sss)….registered myself as a blood donor…went thru a series of formality procedures…while queuing up….i felt like I am queuing up to go on a roller coaster ride…so, when the doc took my blood pressure…it was higher than usual…she said “adik nih….nervous eh”…heck..of course la doc….it’s my first time..hahaha..when the nurse sat me down…I did asked a lot of questions….a lot of how..when..will…can I…questions….i even told the nurse “kak….nih first time saye..tu la banyak soalan nih”..she just laughed and answered all my questions politely with her strong Nogori accent…sometimes..i cudn’t make up what’s she’s saying…but I just nodded….

Everything went well..i didn’t look away when she gave me the injections twice..i even saw my own blood flowing from my arm to the packet….the nurse even put the full packet on my lap when I’m done….scary but a whole new experience…

Another checklist on “things to do before 30” ticked ….i faced my fear….fear…is apparently not a factor….(wish that joe rogan cud say that to me…it wud be more meaningful)..i just feel like sharing, peopleeeeeee…..

What’s next?? hold a Snake….bungee jumping…..travelling alone…sky diving……sing in front of a large crowd……BRING IT ON….

  (me with the other Gsss..)

p/s: shout out to self-proclaimed old man J 

“I dun regret goin to
bed late at nite…..but I’ll regret it the morning after when I have to wake up
early….”

 

  -Azera, Sunday 20^th
may 2007, 12.09am-